Other than the occasional aches and pains and light headedness (that I don't remember from my first pregnancy), things are going smoothly. My most unpleasant symptom is too embarrassing to mention on this blog; so I'll be sparing you the details of that. You're welcome.
The highlight of our day is feeling and watching the baby move and kick. It is amazing how long I can just lay there and watch my stomach move up and down. Involuntarily my hand always seems to rest on my stomach when I feel movement. I'll never take that sensation for granted. It is something I sorely missed after I delivered Ella.
I'm slowly but surely starting to allow myself to think about the delivery. The OBGYN that I had back in Fort Worth told me that many women can even experience Post Traumatic Stress Disorder after a particularly difficult delivery. In fact, the first time I really let my mind go there about 10 weeks ago, I got sick in the shower. We now live about 20 minutes from the hospital so I told John he may need to google 'how to deliver a baby.' He didn't think that was too funny. I take comfort in thinking that surely the odds of one woman having two scary birth experiences in a row must be extremely low. Like maybe 1 in 1,000,000,000...right?
Truth be told, I would gladly (well, maybe not gladly) take another birth experience like the first one if it meant we got the prize at the end. Pleeeease let that not be the case, though.
My anxiety disorder aside, I feel so grateful to be pregnant again. We know what a blessing and miracle and gift this experience is. The fact that we waited so long for this child makes us even more cognizant of God's grace and perfect timing.
21 weeks:
Oh, and one more thing... we're
having
a
BOY!!
HOORAY!!!!!!! Do you have any names picked out???
ReplyDeleteAnd I will be praying for you, your delivery, and your anxiety! ;)
Hooray!!! I was a little apprehensive about having a boy because my girl was so sweet. But hear me when I tell you, nothing... and I mean NOTHING can melt a mama's heart like a little boy can. Ironically, Eli is my best "cuddler". :)
ReplyDeleteI totally know what you mean about the sensation of feeling a baby move. By far, one of God's biggest blessings to women. Ugh... that makes me ache to be pregnant again. And I think that officially makes me crazy! :) Don't tell Ryan about that last part. He might leave me. Hahaha!!! :)
Congratulations! Having one of each lets you in on how INSANE anyone is who tries to minimize the differences between a boy and a girl.
ReplyDeleteAfter James was born, I really missed getting to feel his little body squirm around, too. There is TRULY nothing like it, and nothing cooler.
-Alison
yaaaaayyyy! BOY!
ReplyDeletei'm (secretly) checking your blog from the hospital and wasn't expecting such a big suprrise!!!
so, so, so excited!
xoxo